first thing this morning

This morning I was awaken by the sounds of what I thought was the city construction starting way to early .. I found out quickly that it was actually the sound of a life ending. A woman "allegedly" shot and killed a man after an argument on 10th st. just outside our building. Apparently their fight started in our lobby and continued on to the street where she shot him as he was walking away from her.. One woman who was walking her dog said she saw it all happen and she just froze-- didn't know what to do. No one went to check on the guy because she (the shooter) was still standing over him waving her gun around...she actually had two guns on her ... When the police showed up they tackled her to the floor. It seems so surreal...like a movie
I can't help but think that this person probably didn't realize that today was the day he would die. Death just like life is such a surprise.

This is the 106th homicide this year in Kansas City --compared to 77 last year at this time..

Last night I watched the movie Monster with Charlize Theron. It was about a woman serial killer. It was an intersting and scary look into the mind of a killer. She didn't start off killing or wanting to... This brings me to the story at hand.. Did this woman know she was going to do this? How did it come to this? What happened to lead up to this event? What is going through her mind right now?h

We'll never know all of it.

what are you doing?

funny

http://lizsandersbrown.com/ross/flash/cartoons/what.htm

just wanted to be free

"I want everyone to remember me as a person who wanted to be free."
These are the words of Rosa Parks who died in her home at the age of 92.
Rosa Parks is most remembered as the young seamstress who sat in the white section of the bus because their were no more seats in the black section. Her refusal to yield a seat to a white man in 1955 was a first step in the march to end U.S. segregation.
I guess now she has her wish
she is truly free.

Powerball Virgin

For the first time in my life I played the powerball.. needless to say I didn't win. What a crazy feeling of "what if" I got. I have to admit I was sad when only one number matched mine.I had started to plan my life with the fantasy of money.
I started to think what if I won what would I do with all the money. I'd keep quiet as long as I could. It certainly would take away all the stress of money woes. I don't think I would quit my job or anything because I love what I do but I would take a long vacation.. I would make sure all our debts are paid off and my parents and brothers too. I'd make sure to secure my future with good investments and I'd give to my church communities.

I think now I know why gambling is so addictive...

current tv

There's a new channel in town. Billed as the "first national network created by, for and with an 18-to-34-year-old audience," Current has launched in 20 million homes with programming designed to show younger audiences what's going on . Current TV is a new 24 hour news channel that is smart and innovative. The programming is consists of short bursts called "pods" (from 15 seconds to 10 mins -- just when you are getting bored it changes) created by Current staffers or the big selling point... viewers..

Some of the podcasts go where professional journalists are rarely welcome. For example,Yasmin Vossoughian, an Iranian-American, went to Tehran to research the sexual attitudes of young Iranians. She attended an underground "X party," at which Iranians defied the Islamic police to don jeans, drink, take Ecstasy and dance to 50 Cent. Vossoughian suggested, ingenuously, that the partying proved that young Iranians actually admire the West. (Not all Americans view sex and substance abuse as our proudest exports, and some might take one look at her big night out and conclude that the fundamentalist mullahs have a point.)NYT
The Pods range from fashion to faith to food...All very interesting and all very relevant.
So Check out Current.tv to figure out where you can watch in your area.

grace: the life of the soul

It is the rare person who, looking back over his life and seeing what he has done to it, hasn't sighed for a chance to redeem what he has cheaply used or carelessly ruined. If only somehow, somewhere, there was a way to live again the days we have darkened with our blind haste—the innumerable occasions when our indifference trod on all the pearls of God’s graciousness: the times when our pride, or our fear, or our meanness poured the acid of contempt over the fair countenance of another’s soul! If this grace were ours, how we would leap to the chance!

"To live spiritually is to find the treasure of God’s riches at its heart. It is to leap beyond the ramparts of this world and to see it from the inside with understanding. It is to be conscious of the eternal stream of creation in God; and to know that there is no satisfaction of human thirst outside of it. Sooner or later, the yes or no must be given. Man must have his treasure either here or there, he will serve mammon or God, either or, but never both."

But there is an even deeper yearning in this sigh of the soul to be born again. It is not that we futilely ask to be born at the beginning again, but rather that now being what we are, we are ill content to go on in the same way. The past is past, and we know it. It cannot be broken or re-made. There is no way back. And this is our burden!

This piece is an excerpt from Samuel Howard Miller, The Life of the Soul (Harper, 1951)
want more??

i wonder sometimes

I think about my past now and then.
My failures, my hurts and pain, old jobs, high school, college, ex's, when I first met my husband..etc.... Sometimes I think of what might have been if I had done things differently.

What would it have been like to be the most popular and prettiest girl in high school or middle school?
Where would I be now if I had finished college when I should have? What if I had taken myself a little more seriously when it came to what I really wanted my career to be..I guess it's not too late.
Why did I date that guy... what was I thinking?
What about the one that got away... wonder how life is treating him now?
Sometimes I wonder if my husband and I never met... where would I be? What would he be doing? Would he be married?kids ? Would he have a better life?a better wife?
I couldn't imagine my life without him..He was made for me.. I truly thank God for him everyday
I know What Might Have Been is just that. My life is good ... I want to live my life without regrets -realizing what I have lived and done has only helped me be me... and I'm not done yet my journey has just begun.

the aftermath

So I stumbled upon this blog.
It's more of a photo diary of the hurricane.
It's great to see what the media doesn't show...
I never want to forget what happened --it seems that we have moved on (our nation) --it' hardly in the press.
It has been overshadowed by bird flu,Karl Rove
and Video i pod...


check out this blog too...http://beefandrice.blogspot.com/

I can no longer keep silent

When I first started writing it was really because of Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise I had no where to express my horror and dismay. Then I thought how silly of me to be so upset that I'd have to blog about it.

Well, THEY are making me write this I can no longer keep silent

It seems that the soon to be Mrs. Cruise has fired her publicize of nine years for her soon to be sister in law. Lee Anne De Vette a fellow scientologist is Tom's PR gal too. Maybe we'll be seeing her jumping on Oprah's couches soon too and talking out of her ass about depression.


This all comes on the heels of the announcement of a baby for TomKat (their nickname). You may remember that Katie had vehemently proclaimed that she would remain a virgin until marriage. Well, now she is also going to have a silent birth (I don't know how possible that is I've heard that childbirth is kinda painful and also may add that no man-made sci-fi cult should tell anyone that they can't scream as they push out something that's the size of freaking bowling ball out of something that's smaller than the size of a golf ball) .
She is said to have committed to strict Scientology guidelines surrounding the birth of the baby. Holmes' husband-to-be Tom Cruise is a strict follower of the cult religion of Scientology, founded by Sci-fi writer L. Ron Hubbard.
I just hope and pray that Katie doesn't go through post partum depression because according to Tom it doesn't really exist and psychiatry is a pseudo science.This is coming from a man who worships a religion developed from a sci- fi story about alien beings.

thanx

Hey Just a quick thanx to Tim Samoff and Sam Cargnel for your help moving the couch.. It's very cool...

Looking for the Movers and Shakers

I promise this won't happen to you

We've been blessed to get a new(ish) leather sofa from a friend, only problem is that it's too heavy for my friend and my husband to lift alone and neither of us has access to a truck.
We've researched a few moving companies to get a price quote. But most of them have a 2 hour minimum (this might take 45-60min) and/or are way to expensive to just move a couch for less than an hour.
So, I thought I would reach out see if anyone in our community would be interested in helping us out. I am looking for 2-3 people, with one that owns or has access to a truck for about 60 minutes. We will pay cash for helping out and treat to dinner afterwards, what a deal ! ! !
We are available any evening this week to do this and would like to have it done by Friday. You can either email me or post a comment here with contact info if you or someone you know would be interested in helping out, thanks ! ! !